In my childhood days i used to be scared of the unexplained, a huge thunderbolt would send shivers down my spine, a stare by unknown person would make me run, anything unexplained would get same kind of reaction. Those were very innocent days, the cause & effect theory etc was beyond the level of understanding then. I would very often keep on creating some kind of buffer to counter these fears of mine.
I still remember, i used to feel scared of ghosts, evil spirits and all the species under the hood. I was so meek that i felt scared to enter my toilet alone during nights, as someone had told me that ghosts stay there. I started searching for buffers to counter these threats. I found it in Vetal. Those were the days of legendary tv serials like Vikram aur Vetal. Vetal, i was told, was the King of Ghosts, he controlled all the ghosts. Somewhere down the line, i started liking the Vetal, would draw a picture of Vetal and keep it in my pocket. Would keep on telling myself that Vetal is on my side, now ghosts wont trouble me. And they didnt in real life. I never felt scared of ghosts after that.. till date.. In reality though, now i know from experience that i was actually feeling scared of the thing that never existed. But in those innocent days, the buffer of Vetal did help me a lot those days to overcome my fear, my anxiety.
These days, i have got one new buffer, to overcome my fear, helplessness, to fulfill my egos, my desired. Most of the people do use these buffer. We call it as GOD.
How many of us have actually seen God. Just no one, but still we do all, very faithfully and dutifully bow our heads in front of God. What i feel is that God is just another institution man has created to hide his helplessness, to put the blame of our failures on God. When we are successful, when we have our day in the sunshine, we tend not to remember God, but when we fail, we seek his interference, we crib, even curse him for our failures. Isn’t this utter greediness and self serving purpose for which we’ve created God.
This reminds me of one hilarious situation, We’d been to Agra, after visiting Taj Mahal One priest from ‘Vrindavan Temple’ escorted us and was our ‘Guide’, the distance from Taj Mahal to that Temple was 5 kms. The guy brainwashed us in his unique style, he made us believe, that we are not reaching heaven. The temple visit will wash away all our sins, even an atheist like me found myself clapping hands and chanting hare rama hare krishna.
Only to realize later that the temple the so called Priest took us to visit was not the real ‘Vrindavan Temple’, and that it was some other temple. We all were taken for a ride by the Priest and the ride lasted for good 5 kms. Ignorantly though, we prayed, bowed and did whatever we could to please the God there.
When i came to know that the temple was not the right one and we’d not been to where we had intended, the whole cycle of thoughts revolved in front of me. I could not but, help myself comparing the Vetal & God and whether i was just using it as a buffer.